Tuesday, April 24, 2012

The Real Him...

The crazy part about it is...I'll probably know you better than your next girlfriend ever will. Thanks to me that fear in your heart doesn't exist anymore. I did all the work and she'll reap the benefits. I'm the one you told your secrets to. The one you trusted after not trusting anyone. I never broke that trust. Within that, you were able to trust more. And that's when she came along. You were never as comfortable with her and you were with me. You never trusted her as much as you trusted me. That is what scares you. The fact that I...one person...could hold you secrets, hold your hand and hold your heart all at the same time without dropping it...! Instead of facing your fears you ran. You ran into the arms of a person that will never know the real you and that makes you feel good. I know your flaws and never judged you because of them. I embraced them with you and supported you through it all. But with her...you don't have flaws. She sees the perfect man. I know you're not perfect and that's what attracts me to you. She'll never see what I see because you will never show her what you showed me...The real You

Driven By Fear

Having hoes is alright
But you're constantly searching for love in the wrong places, which in return leaves you alone a night
The perfect person for you could be in front of your face but the walls around your heart are too tall, so she's out of your sight
You blame the position that you're in now, on your past
Never taking responsibility for the part you played in relationships that you knew wouldn't last
Hoping that some girl will teach u how to love but you refuse to attend that class
You mentally yearn for some stimulation
But to avoid the thought of getting hurt, you go for the chicks who will only provide you with sexual relations
Once upon a time you weren't ready, now your decisions are driven by fear
One day you'll wake up alone and realize that the one person that could love you unconditionally has been around for years
You'll reach out for her and she'll no longer be here.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

This Guy...

I had this guy named John and he was koo
But I couldn't get past the fact that he never finished high school
Then there was David he was the trap or die type
Nigga was up on the latest clothes but couldn't figure out how to work facebook or skype O.o
My least favorite I nicked named him Pookie
His conversation was wack, all he ever talked about was how he wanted to do me -___-
Oh yea I cant forget Mack, I thought he was my kind of dude
but he didn't open doors or pull out chairs, he was lowkey rude
next came Ced he acted way too much like a little kid
He went through my purse and phone, tried to keep track on everything i did
Then there was Sean, the nigga with the trust issues
always complaining the ex that cheated, Somebody get this guy a tissue
I almost forgot about Marvin, the nigga thought he was chris brown!
He must have thought I was Rihanna but when he raised his hand I knocked that nigga DOWN
There was this guy Tim.............
He claimed to only want to be friends, BUT he only wanted me to talk to him
This other guy Jay, we talked for a while
Until I got a text from his phone that said "Jay is my man"...it was from the mother of his child
Can't forget about the church going, saved and sanctified guy Dre
He was cheating ass dog at night, but a saved pastor by day
Jarvis was my almost favorite, and to say almost maybe petty
He was a good guy, He acted like my man, but when it came to commitment, he claimed he wasn't ready
All these dudes had some type of good qualities
If I could take all of those things and smash them together, I could build the perfect guy for me!
LOL


Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Our Generation...

Somewhere between the past and the present, cheating became expected
People not breaking up and moving on became the norm because weak ass apologies became accepted
In our generation, settling to avoid being alone is the new trend
At the rate we're going thing will get worse before they end
Sleeping alone is all of a sudden starting to bother everybody
So they suck it up and stay with a person who likes to lie and cheat
Our generation is scared to spend time by themselves
Instead of taking time to get over the last, we look to the next for help
People these days get in relationships just to put it on Facebook
You cant stay single too long because it will be viewed as "Not a good look"
People get in relationships just so they wont be alone on Valentines day
We ignore the ones that adore us because of what our friends might say
Marriage is viewed as "my wifey" or "my hubby"...it's a game
Our generation has yet to scratch the surface of what real love is...I think that's a damn shame!

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Keep Me Alive!!!

I sat in the car and I cried
I beat up the stirring wheel, no one was around to see it was late at night
I felt as if I left my heart on your front porch, I died
I worked so hard to be the best person I could for you, I tried
I felt empty, there's nothing left inside
How could the person that I loved, not love me back?
How could you decide to step outside of our relationship instead of telling me what I lacked? 
You smiled in my face, while secretly your bags you packed
The pain I felt in that moment I can't describe
I had to choose, let your infidelity kill me or let the little piece of me that I kept hidden keep me alive
That night in my car I found a lost piece of me
I learned what love for myself is, and what love for another person should never be...

Monday, April 2, 2012

Single and Lonely...!

 
 Lately I have been noticing that there are a lot of lonely people in the world. Maybe that’s just my twitter timeline or my facebook mini feed(if u do feel that way...u might want to avoid putting it on a social networking site). Am I the only person that has that one girl that when the sun sets she talks about sleeping alone? Am I the only person that has that one guy that tries to talk to any and everybody? I do not see the big deal with spending time by yourself. Some act as if the single life is the worst thing that ever happened to them. They complain about every holiday and whine all the time about not being happy and talk about relationships all day everyday!! Oh my goodness!!!

                My advice to these lonely people is simply…Spend some time getting to know yourself. It is not possible for you to find true happiness within a relationship if you are not bringing happiness to the relationship. Happiness comes from within. I am a strong believer in “You control your own happiness”! If let someone else control your happiness, when that person leaves, your happiness leaves with that person. We take some of the smallest things for granted. We are too busy complaining about what we don’t have. Okay you don’t have a relationship right now. Think about the people who are in a horrible relationship who are secretly wishing they were single. You must exercise patience. There is a reason that you are single at this point in your life. Enjoy being single! Go see a movie with your friends! Spend more time with your family! Write down some goals that you want to accomplish! Spend time getting to know the person that you are. Write down a list of things that you want in a mate and make sure that the next person you decide to get into a relationship with meets those standards.

                Too many times people are lonely and end up jumping head first into a relationship with a person that they are not supposed to be with. (That sense of loneliness does not go away just because you are in a relationship FYI) Too many times people also stay in bad relationships because due to the fear of being lonely, or alone. If you can’t be happy alone…you can’t be happy in a relationship! Single does not mean lonely!!!! Real talk!